Accepting

Saturn Square Sun

“Don’t do anything rash. You might feel that you’ll never be able to give or receive affection again, but honestly — this, too, shall pass.”—astrology.com

I have been sitting in the place for a few weeks now of feeling very sad about all the relationships that haven’t worked out so well over the last year. I’ve been grieving through journaling, meditating, walking, and listening for guidance from Spirit. I’ve been feeling rather quiet, and actually am quite happy that I haven’t felt the need to take any action other than just being with myself.

My mentor pointed out to me this morning that this quiet time is in balance with my usual way of being in the world—that I spend so much time with people both in my work and in my play, that it is ok to be in solitude and quiet for a time. She reminded me that I am learning a deeper practice of acceptance than I have ever known before. It was a relief to remember that this limbo I have been feeling stuck in is actually an essential process. This is how I move from awareness about my patterns and behaviors to a healthy place of taking action to change those things. This is how I am getting more deeply in touch with who I am, and what I like, and what I want. I know that this will make me a better partner when that time comes. But the time is not now. And I am content.