Contact
by Kypris
February 19th, 2010
That internal tension and outright rage against the machine you’re experiencing will pass. So, you really can stop yourself from verbally decimating — and permanently alienating — a dear one.–astrology.com
1 day until my beloved returns! Although my horoscope today says I should be upset, I’m happy to report that I feel loving and relaxed. Yesterday my beloved called me while still on his faraway journey to say hello, and it was so sweet to hear his voice. I found it interesting that he phoned me only a few hours after I shared love with his High Self in shamanic reality (see yesterday’s blog). I notice this pattern: wanting him to initiate contact; getting upset that he isn’t doing so; realizing I don’t have reason to be upset; realizing he’s done nothing wrong; then suddenly feeling waves of love for him and voila! contact.
It makes me laugh so hard at myself thinking about the insanity of the cycle. I’m really SILLY. Why not just try staying in a place of love all the time? Wouldn’t that be easier? I heard someone say once that “healthy people need me to be healthy too” and I think that is a huge piece of it—that even on the purely spiritual level, my love needs me to be healthy and not feel my needy energy pulling on him or my angry energy rolling out at him. It is great practice for me, to learn this, to grow in a way that has been a long time coming. To learn to let go and know that I am loved. Always.
