Doing it All
by Kypris
June 14th, 2010
A tendency to overestimate your own abilities is a side effect of the tremendous amount of physical energy you’ve been temporarily endowed with. Promising more than you’re sure you can deliver is the worst of it. The best of it is your willingness to die trying.–astrology.com
This overestimation of the amount of time and energy I have for things seems to be a chronic problem. Today in particular I find myself with a long list of things to do that relate to work, motherhood, romance, and my spiritual practice. On a day like this I have a choice: I can allow myself to get overwhelmed, I can run myself ragged trying to “do it all”, or I can connect to source and ask what is most important.
When I centered in this morning, took that FULL HOUR for spiritual practice, it calmed me and allowed me to come out of crisis mode. I saw clearly that some things could be deferred to tomorrow, despite my desire to take care of them today. Sometimes that desire to get everything “handled” is a desire to control. And I know for sure that my path right now is exactly the opposite: to surrender. This is just another opportunity to feel into the gap between my desire and my reality. I have a DESIRE to be able to get all the things on my plate accomplished today, while still having time to be a fantastic mother and lover and friend. But the REALITY is that I will fall somewhere short of all that. And that is just fine with me, because after all, I am HUMAN.
