Don’t Go Back to Sleep
by Kypris
September 2nd, 2010
I woke today with my head full of thoughts that were really full of heaviness. I wish I’d realized that Mercury was conjunct Pluto, because when this happens, it can lead to an intensity of thought and obsession with heavy emotions that are out of proportion to the reality of the situation. My situation’s reality is that I’ve had a lot of change lately, and I am tired. I feel like I’ve been running a marathon and I want to crawl back under the covers today. I have been heavily engaged with creating a new temple space for my work, and the list of tasks is still very long. Together with that is a sadness I am feeling about my beloved business partner of many years leaving the business. He has been such a wonderful co-creator and support for me, and I will really miss him. When things are this big in my life, and I’ve been working really hard, I tend to want more pleasure in my life. I want things to be easier. I want the marathon to be over!
But what I remembered this morning is that when Spirit calls me, I must answer, because that is the contract I signed when I came into this incarnation. And today Spirit decided to give me a good swift kick in the butt. My phone started ringing at 8 AM. And although I really didn’t want to, I answered. After three deep and loving conversations with dear friends telling me that this is not the time to give up, I felt better. As I was pondering those conversations, a simple phrase came into my head: “Don’t go back to sleep”. Hearing that reminded me of a Rumi poem that begins that way. May it feed and inspire you through your day:
“The breeze at dawn has secrets to tell you.
Don’t go back to sleep.
You must ask for what you really want.
Don’t go back to sleep.
People are going back and forth across the doorsill
where the two worlds touch.
The door is round and open.
Don’t go back to sleep.”
From Essential Rumi
by Coleman Barks
