Faith and Presence

Today’s Horoscope

“Stop worrying about what you want in the present moment and set your sights on a more significant long-term goal.”–google.com

For the last several weeks I have been working hard at keeping focused on the future I want to create for myself, which includes a life partner that is in alignment with the life I already have. I don’t want a white knight to rescue me, and I don’t want to settle for anything less than a full match. It’s a great time to focus on getting thoroughly grounded in the parts of my life that are not about a partner.

It’s challenging. I miss the regular company of charming men. I miss their smell, their touch, their stimulating daily conversation. I miss reaching for the phone to share really great news with a special someone. Ok, yes, and let’s be honest. I miss the beautiful deep tantric sexual connection that gets created for me with a committed partner. It’s a test of faith for me, faith that Spirit really can bring me the perfect life partner if I work on creating a reflection of that person within myself. I am growing to be something completely different on the surface that is actually a full expression of what has always been buried deeply within. I am learning to delight in my freedom, instead of being afraid to fly. Somedays I get so giddy from knowing that I can do whatever I want that I fall back into bed…alone and yet not lonely.