I Don’t Feel the Way I Used to

Sun semisextile Mercury

For some reason, you just don’t feel the way you used to feel, and you have a strong suspicion that they don’t either. What to do? Follow your gut.
–astrology.com

Waking up this morning I read this and in my gut I felt FEAR–oh, is he falling out of love with me? Isn’t this our deepest fear as women, that love won’t last? That we will get hurt or be abandoned?

My beloved and I are still getting to know each other, and the truth is that I don’t feel the way I used to about him. I feel more love, and more trust and more connection because we are communicating more deeply about who we are with each other. And I am learning to listen and really know who he is, instead of creating some fantasy in my head.

In my meditation today, I could feel his heart connected to mine. And sometimes as I fall asleep I feel his arms around me even when he is not here. And it is sweet.