Rebirth

New Moon in Leo, Pluto square Jupiter and Uranus

What a Time of death and rebirth it is right now! So many old structures exploding. Last week Steven shared his leaving Yabyummy with the world, making it official. My mechanic pronounced my car ready to die. And I made the decision to give up my trip to Burning Man. Everything felt SO intense. I was sad imagining working at my life’s passion without my wonderful partner of four years. I was sad about giving up the vacation I’ve been planning since January. I kept falling into fear that I would be stuck in this letting go, this emptiness of the void, forever.

On Saturday, the height of the Grand Cross (translation: very intense astrological event) I gave in and cried all the way through my fire breath practice. Then I laughed at how hard it is to breathe through your nose when you are crying! And then like clouds breaking through the storm I woke up today feeling Clear, Ready for whatever is next. A real, actual, dedicated Yabyummy temple is being born (stay tuned for details). Old loves are morphing into new forms. Just yesterday in the midst of a deep conversation with one of these old loves, a message from Spirit came. A Falcon perched on my fence in the backyard, telling me that it is time to bring passion and focus and vision to that relationship. I am both fearful of repeating old mistakes and eager to see what this relationship may have to teach me this time. I am ready to let go of goals and just simply embody love. Like the falcon I am gliding effortlessly on the winds of change.