Hyperawareness

Jupiter Opposition Asc

You’re quite focused on one particular area of your life now — the corner that houses your behavior in one-on-one relationships. Fortunately, things look pretty good in that department, and it’s easy to see how you might already know that. Carry on.–astrology.com

I spent the weekend in hyperawareness mode, spending time rooting out the unhealthy patterns in my relating to myself and others. I woke up Saturday feeling a little sad and couldn’t quite tell why. I didn’t feel jealous of my beloved spending time with another lover, but I felt this obsession kicking up about talking with him. It seemed a little out of proportion.

Like a miner searching for gold, I went excavating. I journaled, I read some of my favorite spiritual books about healthy relationship, and I talked to a trusted mentor. I found quickly that although I missed my beloved a bit, I was really mostly sad about some changes in my relationship with my son, and wanting contact with my beloved to push those feelings away. I love that when we did talk, I was able to simply share my sadness, and he could support me in staying with moving through it. By Saturday afternoon I was right as rain and ready to enjoy my weekend of time alone. Ahhhhh.